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Sep. 6th, 2001 07:06 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sarchanThe following was written offline at school:
God damn I'm so bored! I just took a math test! And we *still* have one more hour till we get out of this class! *falls over* x.x The weather's really nice and cool today...ugh! I'm so bored I'm talking about the freakin' weather for god's sake! I'm a complete LOSER!
My pencil is dull. But I dun wanna disturb the class by causing a loud racket and sharpen my pencil...cuz then everyone would stare at me! So, I'll be stayin' in my seat. rar..I could sure use a cherry soda right about now! *glances at the soda machines outside through the barred windows* (well, maybe they're not actually *barred*...
Okay. I'm in Health now. Another fucking 2 hours in here! I *hate* block schedule! I gotta go do an assignment now...laterz.
~.~ In Biology now. I would write more, but, uh *glances around the room* I'll tell ya guys later! ugh. I only have 2 more hours left and then I get out of school! Yay! Gotta do assignment.......*explodes*
Fuck!!!!!! I just gave myself the biggest god damn paper cut!!! OUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't--
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Okay. So that was my day in a nutshell. I stopped writing after I got that paper cut. *winces* It still hurts. It was bleeding. But, I didn't wanna cause a scene (not that I already wasn't) to get up and ask for a band-aid. u.u
And the reason I couldn't write was because that fat guy that sits next to me would make fun of me and if he found out i was writing about him he might get *ideas* or something...O.o;;; Yuck. He keeps talking to me and asking me gay questions...it's so completely NAUSEATING!
My teachers gave me homework. Lots!!!! And Tasia wanted me to ditch 7th period and walk home with her...but I told her, no, because, well I don't do that kind of stuff.
Let's face it, I'm a total dork! x.x
...but when I say that, I don't mean that I hang out with all the nerds and stuff. I wouldn't stoop *that* low. But, I just find myself hanging out by myself a lot. No friends. I do have a few, but...they're just...not there. Only Tasia and Karen.
Being lonely sucks shit. One day I'll meet this really cool guy outta no where when I move to San Francisco (when I'm 18) and we'll fall in love and get married and live HAPPILY EVER AFTER!
~-~ yeah right. YEAH RIGHT. Like any IDIOT in his right mind would EVER wanna marry me! He might get disgusted just looking at me! I hate my stupid little fantasies and dreams that will never come true. I'm living in a make believe world. I gotta stop.
Why couldn't I be born someone else? Someone who was just born *naturally* pretty...*sniff sniff* People are so ignorant at my school. They act like I'm a bug that needs to be squished or they act like I'm invisible. But I'm NOT! I'm a PERSON, damnit and PERSONS have feelings!
All I have is my friends online. That's it. Those are really the ones who actually care about me. But if I didn't have them...I'd have committed suicide by now. Seriously.
Well, when I'm older and I live in San Fran, I'm inviting ALL of my online friends to this huge old party, and it's gonna be HELLA fun..cuz we're gonna be adults and we can drink and DRIVE and do all this fun shit we couldn't do before! (not talking about drugs or anything..)
I can't WAIT! As soon as I get outta high school I'll be for ONCE noticed as a human BEING and not as a nobody! There will be no cliques, no preps, no skaters, no nerds, just PEOPLE! And that's why the adult world is so facinating...because we finally escape out of all the torture and ignorance. I'll finally have the life I have been waiting *years* for. *sighs*
God damn I'm so bored! I just took a math test! And we *still* have one more hour till we get out of this class! *falls over* x.x The weather's really nice and cool today...ugh! I'm so bored I'm talking about the freakin' weather for god's sake! I'm a complete LOSER!
My pencil is dull. But I dun wanna disturb the class by causing a loud racket and sharpen my pencil...cuz then everyone would stare at me! So, I'll be stayin' in my seat. rar..I could sure use a cherry soda right about now! *glances at the soda machines outside through the barred windows* (well, maybe they're not actually *barred*...
Okay. I'm in Health now. Another fucking 2 hours in here! I *hate* block schedule! I gotta go do an assignment now...laterz.
~.~ In Biology now. I would write more, but, uh *glances around the room* I'll tell ya guys later! ugh. I only have 2 more hours left and then I get out of school! Yay! Gotta do assignment.......*explodes*
Fuck!!!!!! I just gave myself the biggest god damn paper cut!!! OUCH!!!!!!!!!!!!! I can't--
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Okay. So that was my day in a nutshell. I stopped writing after I got that paper cut. *winces* It still hurts. It was bleeding. But, I didn't wanna cause a scene (not that I already wasn't) to get up and ask for a band-aid. u.u
And the reason I couldn't write was because that fat guy that sits next to me would make fun of me and if he found out i was writing about him he might get *ideas* or something...O.o;;; Yuck. He keeps talking to me and asking me gay questions...it's so completely NAUSEATING!
My teachers gave me homework. Lots!!!! And Tasia wanted me to ditch 7th period and walk home with her...but I told her, no, because, well I don't do that kind of stuff.
Let's face it, I'm a total dork! x.x
...but when I say that, I don't mean that I hang out with all the nerds and stuff. I wouldn't stoop *that* low. But, I just find myself hanging out by myself a lot. No friends. I do have a few, but...they're just...not there. Only Tasia and Karen.
Being lonely sucks shit. One day I'll meet this really cool guy outta no where when I move to San Francisco (when I'm 18) and we'll fall in love and get married and live HAPPILY EVER AFTER!
~-~ yeah right. YEAH RIGHT. Like any IDIOT in his right mind would EVER wanna marry me! He might get disgusted just looking at me! I hate my stupid little fantasies and dreams that will never come true. I'm living in a make believe world. I gotta stop.
Why couldn't I be born someone else? Someone who was just born *naturally* pretty...*sniff sniff* People are so ignorant at my school. They act like I'm a bug that needs to be squished or they act like I'm invisible. But I'm NOT! I'm a PERSON, damnit and PERSONS have feelings!
All I have is my friends online. That's it. Those are really the ones who actually care about me. But if I didn't have them...I'd have committed suicide by now. Seriously.
Well, when I'm older and I live in San Fran, I'm inviting ALL of my online friends to this huge old party, and it's gonna be HELLA fun..cuz we're gonna be adults and we can drink and DRIVE and do all this fun shit we couldn't do before! (not talking about drugs or anything..)
I can't WAIT! As soon as I get outta high school I'll be for ONCE noticed as a human BEING and not as a nobody! There will be no cliques, no preps, no skaters, no nerds, just PEOPLE! And that's why the adult world is so facinating...because we finally escape out of all the torture and ignorance. I'll finally have the life I have been waiting *years* for. *sighs*
