Subject....such a.....weird word....

[sarchan]

Hello all. I can't really think of a subject that will describe my mood for tonight. I'm mostly just kinda...there....you've all probably been in this mood. God, it seems like every day is repeating itself. It's like, every day, I wake up go to school, come home, play zelda/go on the computer/play nintendo, then go to bed and repeat schedule....my life has no depth or meaning to it anymore. It's really bothering me. Although this guy did ask me and Kandi to go to a concert with him tonight, but, of course, I didn't wanna go. Why would I? It's just a place where stupid idiots drink, do drugs, and get *badly* injured in mosh pits with terrible music playing....what's so great about that? Nothing really. Which is why I didn't go in the first place.

I think partly the reason I'm in this mood is because I'm so damn tired. I force myself to wake up earlier than I'm supposed to...
god...every day i'm always crying over something..i'm such a stupid baby....
*sighs* this music is bugging me but I'm too lazy to get up and change the cd. Wait, no I'm not. I must go change the cd before I get a headache...

So much better!! It's Mariah Carey..(Daydream) so anyways....yeah....i need to get out somewhere. But I can't go anywhere. That's my problem. I'm always stuck somewhere. But if I stay in this same old life-pattern, I know I'm just going to collapse...

question of life.....what is happiness??? I don't know what the hell it is anymore! I'm lost!! If anyone can answer it, I'd be happy to know. Well, i guess i'll go.