What am I supposed to do now?

[sarchan]

Hi...today has been the most hectic/depressing day of my entire life. My little sister and I got in a huge fight, and I mean HUGE. Normally, they're not this bad, but this one was really bad. It got to hitting and throwing a book.

She hurt me really bad so I escaped by taking a shower. But before I could, my dad came and yelled at me...and while I was in the shower, I felt like I was going to die.

I literally collapsed in tears..and I think it was the hardest I have ever cried in my life...

I feel as though I'm in a house with padded white walls, like I'm stuck and I can't go anywhere. Atleast when I'm at school I can get away from this boring life.

I had a long talk with my older sister today. It even got to the point where we were crying. We were discussing about why I was so unhappy, and that I should not attempt to hurt myself anymore...(I tried to do something to myself yesterday that I strongly regret, although I had doubts about it today)

But...yeah...I'm so glad I have so many wonderful friends online ^_^ Because all of my *real* friends are messed up in the head and treat me like shit...so thank you all online friends!

Well, I guess I'll be going now...ta ta..