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[sarchan]

Hm...this song cheers me up! ^.^ Today has been really boring. Nothing much going on...I wish some friends would get online. I'm thinking of throwing some lame little party at like 8-ish or something. That'd be fun...considering we all haven't chatted in a chat room in a hell of a long time. I kinda miss it, actually. That's why I'm doing it. *looks around the room* i have lots of anime posters and crap up on my walls. The rows are crooked. Arg...Sae has all my cd's..including *all* of my Mariah Carey cd's. I kinda wanted to listen to them since I haven't heard 'em in forever. I just tried calling Candace. Cuz I felt like talking to her, I guess. She's gonna call me back later. Fine with me...*sighs* I really don't like living in this stupid time period. It bugs me. Everything is too technology-like. I mean, I love the computers and video games and all, but it's all kinda getting carried away. I think i'd love living in the 70's, or maybe even early 80's.Those were interesting times. Even if they dressed tacky, who cares? It wouldn't be considered dressing bad if it was the most modern thing they had, would it? If I had a time machine (ok, this thing is getting a little far-fetched, lol) I'd like go back to medevial times. I don't know why, that particular time period fascinates me. It had beautiful music, I loved the dresses all the women wore...even if people got killed a lot...but, oh well. My stomach hurts. It always hurts. Really sick of it. You know what I'm really scared of?? The future!! I really don't want to know what i'll be like when I"m 40 or something. That kinda stuff just scares me...it really does. ughhhh there's so many people I haven't talked to in years...speaking of talking to people, my mom just called. Me and her had a big fight last night. She finally called...and she told me that her cell phone got stollen. u_u that sucks. But I'm always getting in fights with her. Partly because she's nothing like me. She used to be more of a mother to me, now she's just like a *young* 19 year old big sister who likes to party alot. Atleast that's how *I* see it. Ever since she moved out she's been acting totally...I don't know...young. It's probably the whole mid-life crisis or something. Just glanced at my buddy list. Only Jared's online. (Actually there's 5 other people online, but they're not important enough to talk to) I really should go thru my stupid buddy list and delete a few people. I don't talk to them, so what's the point? Later tonight I'm going to Borders. Maybe I can get a new book, maybe not. Oh well. I already have like 5 books I should be reading right now. But I get bored with books really fast. When school starts I know i'll have more of a life to talk about. Like all the people that will make fun of me every damn day. Or all the homework I won't do. Actually...I'm planning to get straight A's this year. So I guess I'll *attempt* and do all my work this year. I wanna get into a good college. Too bad I have to take 3 years of god damn spanish just to get into college. geez. Look how much I've written. I don't care anymore how much I write. I could go on forever if I want to. ....ok...it's really starting to piss me off now. Everywhere I look there's an *I* I am SO SELFISH. ALL I CARE ABOUT IS MYSELF. IT'S ALWAYS, "I DID THIS, I DID THAT!!" How can I be so self-obsorbed!!! I really dont' care if this is even MY own journal, I can't believe how arrogent I am!! When thousands of other people have the worst lives in the world and I write about crap each day. That is just really screwed up. THERE I GO AGAIN WRITING ABOUT MYSELF!!!! I'M STILL DOING IT!!!!!! THAT'S IT. I'M DONE.


>.< GOOD RIDDANCE TO MYSELF. GOOD RIDDANCE TO ALL OF YOU!!!!!