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Dec. 3rd, 2001 08:16 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
sarchanwell...tonight was certainly....a night i don't want to talk about. but i will.
things were getting hectic at my house, we had to have my mom over for a talk. we were thinking we should change the schedule...as in my sister and i would have to spend a week at my mom's, and then switch every weekend. which would be better for all of us.
..but i think the thing that got me the most was my parent's arguing. i have never had to react the way i did...i just started crying. i couldn't take it. as my parents were arguing back and forth, i was sitting there....with my hands in front of my face. because i can't stand for people to watch me cry.
my parents were arguing because my mom wants more communication between them, because they can't be at our birthday parties, or even in the same room without being all hostile, and not feeling uncomfortable. i didn't realize it at first, but i think that them not really being on friend's-terms with eachother even though they're divorced, has really been hurting me. and now my feelings came out. i think it may have been a big reason as to why i'm depressed all the time, although i didn't realize it until tonight.
i was dying to talk to my really close online-friends about this, considering that my real friends..they're just harder to talk to. but none of you are online. so i had to post in this stupid livejournal. well....i guess i'll go. i have loads of homework.
things were getting hectic at my house, we had to have my mom over for a talk. we were thinking we should change the schedule...as in my sister and i would have to spend a week at my mom's, and then switch every weekend. which would be better for all of us.
..but i think the thing that got me the most was my parent's arguing. i have never had to react the way i did...i just started crying. i couldn't take it. as my parents were arguing back and forth, i was sitting there....with my hands in front of my face. because i can't stand for people to watch me cry.
my parents were arguing because my mom wants more communication between them, because they can't be at our birthday parties, or even in the same room without being all hostile, and not feeling uncomfortable. i didn't realize it at first, but i think that them not really being on friend's-terms with eachother even though they're divorced, has really been hurting me. and now my feelings came out. i think it may have been a big reason as to why i'm depressed all the time, although i didn't realize it until tonight.
i was dying to talk to my really close online-friends about this, considering that my real friends..they're just harder to talk to. but none of you are online. so i had to post in this stupid livejournal. well....i guess i'll go. i have loads of homework.
