Subject....such a.....weird word....

[sarchan]

Hello all. I can't really think of a subject that will describe my mood for tonight. I'm mostly just kinda...there....you've all probably been in this mood. God, it seems like every day is repeating itself. It's like, every day, I wake up go to school, come home, play zelda/go on the computer/play nintendo, then go to bed and repeat schedule....my life has no depth or meaning to it anymore. It's really bothering me. Although this guy did ask me and Kandi to go to a concert with him tonight, but, of course, I didn't wanna go. Why would I? It's just a place where stupid idiots drink, do drugs, and get *badly* injured in mosh pits with terrible music playing....what's so great about that? Nothing really. Which is why I didn't go in the first place.

I think partly the reason I'm in this mood is because I'm so damn tired. I force myself to wake up earlier than I'm supposed to...
god...every day i'm always crying over something..i'm such a stupid baby....
*sighs* this music is bugging me but I'm too lazy to get up and change the cd. Wait, no I'm not. I must go change the cd before I get a headache...

So much better!! It's Mariah Carey..(Daydream) so anyways....yeah....i need to get out somewhere. But I can't go anywhere. That's my problem. I'm always stuck somewhere. But if I stay in this same old life-pattern, I know I'm just going to collapse...

question of life.....what is happiness??? I don't know what the hell it is anymore! I'm lost!! If anyone can answer it, I'd be happy to know. Well, i guess i'll go.

Comments

happiness...

[(Anonymous)]

I know what happiness is. It might seem a little late to post a response, but what the hay. Might as well right? Happiness isn't worth having. Let me explain. What you want is joy. Happiness comes and goes as temperly as the wind, and is just as usefull. Joy however, can only be achieved one way-spiritually. Joy doesn't flee like happiness either. Joy stays with you forever. Now whether or not you decide to make the decision i am proposing is up to you. However, i strongly reccomend that you would think about this before you just brush it off as "hokey" or the like. To see what you can do to achieve "joy" permanently, and give meaning to your life, e-mail me. My e-mail is: princeinthekingdom@hotmail.com hope to hear from you soon!